From Bev’s Hyphotalamus
11 Apr 2011 2 Comments
That person wants her to ramp as a bikini model even she doesn’t want, wants her to wear short shorts, to look nearly as a bitch,sometimes hit her, spank her inside a mall and told her that she has a dysfunctional family. But what she can do? Pretend as if it is not happening? Pretend that it doesn’t hurt?
I’ve learned that even the most bad person also do cry. We complain and expect a lot about other people.(and I regret doing it) We do not understand that these people also do cry and sometimes, they also pray.
We should be aware that they are also children of God that needs to be loved.. but what can we do? We’re just a human. We can’t easily control the feelings, the hatred, the bitterness they sowed in our heart or I may say the bitterness we allow to grow in our heart.
People have rights to express their emotions and they also have rights to change. They deserve to be forgiven. They deserve to be loved.Am I condemning anyone? No. It’s a reminder for us so that in the future, we’ll not be able to hurt again other people.What if they are doing the wrong thing? What if you already forgive them,but still they do the same thing?
A person said to me once, You have to give up. It’s a call for you to pray.It’s not in your hands now. Give it all up to God.Yeah, it’s kinda release. but is it the last option? God is always the last option for some of us.And yes, sometimes I also do that. I’m not perfect. now I’m asking “why do you expect so much?” And now, I’m thinking… do the people I’d hurt uttered this phrase also?Do the people we’d hurt uttered this phrase also? You may say now, “I knew it”, “your so bad”, “you shouldn’t have do that”, “I told you before”… “Bev… you’re so ignorant of many things”… So how about you? Did you not do the same thing? Does your criticism help that person?
Does our criticisms help that person?
I’m not pertaining to anybody. It’s a natural response of a person. So don’t react too much. I’m typing what comes into my mind right now. I even don’t know if my grammar is right. I’m trying to edit and rephrase some words now.I’m just letting you know that this is just a release.
There was a time that I told to my group, It is OK with me if you tell negative words about me. Just don’t do it in my front and when everybody is here. I’m your leader and you need a leader. Once you do it in front of them, there would be no more practice of respect. If there’s nobody to organize the group, we will not be able to furnish what we have to do. It’s OK to say that when I’m not in that place. I UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS A RELEASE. SAYING NEGATIVE WORDS BECOMES A RELEASE OF EMOTIONS.
It is not us.That emotion is the enemy and sometimes we can’t control of that emotion. It hurts other people though it’s a release.But I’m not saying that it is one of the right things we should do. I’m just saying that time, If they can’t control it, then do it when I’m out of the place. But of course, it is still much better not to do it at all.
I’m not telling these things only for you. But of course, it’s for me also. As I have said, I’m not perfect. We can’t expect that everybody can understand us. We cannot please everybody.
So why am I writing this? It is also a release. A release of emotional tension.It is better to do it this way than to use my lips. So that I will not be able to hurt anybody and I will not be able to get hurt again.. physically, emotionally…
Now, do I feel better? Sort of. I can’t say it that fast. Because it is a process… we all undergo through a process.
Maybe your forgiveness might help and also my forgiveness. So now I’m telling you, I’m so sorry…
plus the so called “rational thinking”…
plus the so called “GOD”…
He has to be my first option now…
God, You are my real Father, if I expect much with this world I will always end up disappointed.
You are the One that loves me unconditionally, restores me. Show me again Your unending love. Let me know that I am love unconditionally so I may be able to share unconditional love also, to share good thoughts, to be loved and give forgiveness and to be forgiven also.
You give Your life to save us… to save me… from all of these things. Guide me again or i should say I’m letting You again to guide me. I need You. Only in You I can say the words “I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT YOU.”
I love You so much. Will you talk to me today? or I should I say, you always communicate with me, it’s just that I don’t listen. I’m sorry.
Can you hug me tight? Can I cry on your shoulders? Can I spend a vacation with You?
Can You answer here?… or should I say, You answered already…
I’m sorry daddy Lord…
and I miss You so much… :_)
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Have Fun and Win by happybev
23 Mar 2011 Leave a Comment
This article is dedicated for our organization: Psychomets. Fortunately, it was not published in our paper, so I was able to put it here, paste some pics and a dedication.
The hardships we had while participating in different events was so incredible. Despite of limited resources and networks we have, still, we managed to compete! Congratulations Psych!
Have Fun and Win
Happy Bev
Think positive and always start our day happy. Everything is easier when we are having fun.
-Happy Bev
Psychology Department's dancers 
Serving as one of the leader of our organization is not as simple as counting 123. Different challenges come out on our way every time there are school events. Priorities are sometimes being neglected. Stressors are also there to actively participate in destroying our confidence and draining our strength. Despite of negative effects we know that we might encounter, we ensure that our mind is always set to one thing, which is reaching our goal. And what is that goal? It is to win.
have fun and win
Winning has different meanings to different persons. For some, it means reaching the prize everybody wants. The success, the recognition, the position or anything that would make us feel that we’re on top or above of the others. And there’s nothing wrong with that. Everybody has a need to be recognized. It’s an aspect that contributes in building up our esteem.
trophy yan
Winning also, to some, means a development to their selves. Wherein whether that person may lose in that challenge, as long as he learned and had fun from it, he still considers himself a winner. It is simply because from that experience, that person gained wisdom. And that wisdom is an achievement that he can use on the next trial he may possibly face. Having fun also adds as an accomplishment considering that the time spent while playing is not wasted and is enjoyed.
for some this is winning
While the idea of achieving excellence is undeniably important, so is the idea of having fun. If we will only focused on being on top, once we failed reaching it, we can extract all the joy out of most parts of our lives .
whoowww...
Now, it’s time to let ourselves go and involve enjoyment in our lives. Because when we’re having fun, anything becomes possible, including winning.
Psych's belen
Your Love Keeps on Following Me
22 Mar 2011 2 Comments
Zyra, Asel, Zenia, Mark Dex, my henyo friends, I’m not really good in constructing blogs, write -ups in English. But of course, I really want to learn. That’s why your suggestions, corrections are very well accepted. Thank you! And I hope you’ll like the story also.
Love lots,
Bev
The henyo friends of mine and the asawa of the long hair
Your Love Keeps Following Me
By Happy Bev
All I remember was I started my day a disaster. I did not pray and have a fever. I’m weak and in pain because of my illness. Instead of resting, I choose to finish our house chores. Earlier that day also we asked our helper to leave because she doesn’t help us at all. My husband is resting from a whole day work. My mom was there but only to watch for my kid. I do not have any person in help but me. After all, I’m used to it and I love doing things in home when I’m alone.
The work I did were: trim our plants, feed the dogs, clean the garden, operate the laundry machine, prepare our food, while from time to time, I hug and kiss my daughter. I do also steal some seconds to laugh and sing with her. Her beautiful smile restores me.
Finishing all the work I need to do, I decided to go in our dressing room to sit and start to work on folding the clothes. My kid approached me and offered her help. Even though she’s just playing, her presence renews my strength.
Suddenly, she stood up and said “Mommy, let’s go, play”. That time I decided to stop. I put on the folded clothes on our cabinet and saw her princess costume. I showed her the dress and told her that we would play. I explained that she would act as a model and I’m the photographer. Hurriedly, she insisted to wear the dress and her small crown.
- my beautiful daughter
After several shots we did in our room, she walks toward the mirror and talk to herself. She said, “shama, shama, shama”. I told her that I don’t understand her. She replied, “shama, shama, shama” again and approached me. She touched my face with her two cute little hands and said, “Mommy, pray.” While holding my face with her hands, she looked at me in the eye, hugged me and tapped my back. She repeated it four times. The next scene is unexplainable, God revealed in her eyes that it was Him hugging me and telling me that He is my Jehovah Shamma which means I’m always with you, you don’t need to be alone, and I’m here for you. My little girl was so serious that time and her hugs were so tight. Her actions made me so amaze and quiet. And out of the blue, I cried.
Jehovah Shammah
After that, my kid walked back to her play room. She did get her doll, put her crown on it and said, “Mommy, look oh, Baby Mell, princess, and Mika (her name), princess”, telling me that they are both princess.
“Come!” she said and put her small crown on my head. “Mommy also, princess” she uttered. That moment I was reminded by a chapter in the Bible, the Galatians 4, that says, We are sons and daughters of a King, who is our Father God, so we are His princes and princesses, His heirs, and His beloved.
Galatians 4
My mood turned out so good that day. The experience seems so wonderful that I can’t keep it on my own. And so as I put my daughter into sleep, I started to write it down. That then I realized that even though I did not put God first, still He will always show me how worthy I am to receive His unconditional love, and so same with all of you. And no matter who we are, what we do or how far we are from Him, His love will keep on following us.
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21 Mar 2011 Leave a Comment
Naging aktibo ako sa panonood ng news patungkol sa nangyayari sa Japan nung mga panahon umatake ang Tsunami siyam na araw na ang nakakaraaan.
Sendai, Japan
Ito ay isa lamang sa kadahilanan kung bakit bumagsak ang resistensya ng aking katawan,walang tulog habang gumagawa ng projects ko at habang may dala-dalang sakit.
Ngunit ito’y hindi ko naman pinagsisihan. ito ang naging dahilan upang mamulat ang aking mga mata, Spiritually.
Naisip ko. papaano kung tayo ang nasa situation ng Japan ng mga panahon na un?
Malamang halos umikot na ang ating puwit (excuse me) kaka isip kung ano ang gagawin.
Kahit luha’t pagod na ang aking mga mata ay pilit ko pa ring binabasa at iniintindi ang mga Nihonggong salita sa news ng Japan. Dahil mas updated sila kaysa sa mga English news.(nandoroon ang aking mga mahal kaya ganon na lamang ang aking pag-aalala)
Sadyang abuso talaga ang ginawa ko nung mga gabing iyon. May mga araw din na kailangan ko na talagang i-admit sa ospital dahil super dehydrated na daw ako. Talagang may “super” na nalalaman si doc. Ang rason ko lang marami akong gagawin at ok na ko. kunwari.
Nandun ang dalawang oras ako inobserba sa ER (emergency Room) kung kakayanin ko. Iniready na nila ang linya na dadaanan ng dextrose sa kamay ko. Ang usapan: “kapag sumuka ka uli sa ibibigay kong gamot automatic admit ka na” sabi ni Doctora.
Hehe. As usual papayag ba naman ako nun.ako pa di-nare mo. hehe (sorry sa mga nagmamahal sa akin)Pero pinigil ko talagang masuka nung mga oras na yon. Nakakatawa.
dati pa yan uli
Sa dami ko ba namang gagawin papa-admit ako. at hello? Ang mahal kaya ng gagastusin namin. hehe. Mabuti na lang nandun si God.
Si God na walang malay sa mga ginagawa natin at pag may aberya… Lord tulungan nyo po ako.
Di naman lahat ng tao ganun. Karamihan lamang kaya sana wag kang magalit , magexplain at mag-gm sakin ng kung anu ano.
Hindi ako maka-Diyos, dili man din relihiyosa. Ang alam ko lamang mahal ako ni Daddy Lord. Close kami e. look…
me and my Daddy Lord
Although, inabuso ko ang pagmamahal nya, nariyan pa rin sya para sakin. Unti-unti narerestore na ang lakas ko. Unti unti na ring nababawasan ang mga gamot na tine-take ko. Napromote na ang asawa ko. Yehey! At masaya na uli ako.
Thanks Daddy. eto pala ung sinasabi mo dati pa na ikaw ang aking tunay na Ama. Talaga nga namang mahal na mahal mo ako.Sa kabila ng aking mga kakulangan, patuloy mo pa rin akong minamahal.
Sana makapag-comment ka rin dito ano?
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Nang ituloy ni bev ang kanyang 1st blog…
19 Mar 2011 2 Comments
ayun! Ang sabi ko nga sobrang kapaguran ang naranasan ko… sa 1st blog ko, basahin mo. hehe.
From 1st blog:
“Matapos ang mahabang kapaguran ko sa foundation week namin… kasunod ng sunud-sunod na sakit ko…. (Abuso talaga!) sumabay ang tambak na projects na sineryoso ng todo… kasabay ng nangyari sa Japan, dahil nandun ang mga mahal ko… (Sobra na!) nagalit na talaga ako… ayun bagsak katawan ko…Naisip ko tuloy na…”
Ganun pala ang buhay… (dear ate charo… meron pa ba nun?)
un na nga… Ganun pala ng buhay… uli… kung wala kang kakuntentuhan, di ka magiging masaya.
Ayan nagising ang asawa ko… aalis na daw kami. maliligo muna ako. bukas na lang ha!
di na talaga kami mgtagpo. pati sa kiss sablay oh. hehe
Ayun, ang bagal ko daw mag blog. actually napansin ko din e.hehehe
Mukhang naging masaya naman kami ni mister ko sa date namin. halata ba?
Nalimutan ko na yung mga sasabihin ko sa 1st blog ko kaya next time ko na lang itutuloy un.
Ang kulit ko ba? sana hindi i cancel ng Word Press ang aking ACCOUNT.hihi
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18 Mar 2011 1 Comment
Bwahihi! bumalik na ang sigla ko. Ang daming revelations,nakagawa tuloy ako ng account sa Word Press.
Hindi ako magaling na blogger, hindi rin magaling na writer, hindi rin naman frustrated at hindi rin naman nangangarap. Wala lang. Ika nga, sakto lang. naglilibang lang. Bwahihi!
Medyo na-late ang maturation process ko, so hindi naman ako naghahabol, ika nga, wala lang din. Natutuwa lamang ako sa mundo. Masaya pala. na malungkot, na masaya uli, na malungkot uli, tapos masaya na naman.
Matapos ang mahabang kapaguran ko sa foundation week namin… kasunod ng sunud-sunod na sakit ko…. (Abuso talaga!) sumabay ang tambak na projects na sineryoso ng todo… kasabay ng nangyari sa Japan, dahil nandun ang mga mahal ko… (Sobra na!) nagalit na talaga ako… ayun bagsak katawan ko…Naisip ko tuloy na… Bukas na lang ituloy… ang blog ko… Bwahihi!
Goodnight!
dati pa yan
Alas syete ng umaga, Marso 19, 2011, dumating ang aking asawa mula sa trabaho. Asar! antok pa ko e. Joke lang.
Niyakag (inakag?) nya kong magalmusal sa labas, kinain ang aming all time favorite na pares. Ang sarap naman kasi talaga… ng pares…
Nang kami’y nakauwi na sa aming mahal na tahanan, Ako ay ng desisyon ng ituloy ang pinaka una kong blog na “bwahihi!” -wala lang na-tripan ko lang siyang gamitin na title.
Binuksan kong muli ang aming computer… sa tagalog… kompyuter. Maya- maya’y lumapit si asawa at nagsabing… Mahal… salamat sa pagbukas ng kompyuter… may isesearch kasi ako na pwede nating puntahan mamaya. Ayun… no comment na lang. lumabas ako ng likod bahay… kinuha ang kutsilyo at gwantes (gloves) at sinimulang magbungkal…. ng lupa. Asar!
- “kutsilyo at gwantes”
ang aming hardin sa harap ng bahay
unang parteng nilinis ko
pangalawang parte
pangatlong parte
mga natabas x 4
Matapos ang tatlong oras na pag-bungkal ng lupa, pag-alis ng mga damo, pag-hello sa mga linta, at pagdilig ng halaman. Sa wakas, uminit na rin si Haring araw na tila nagsasabing… “Iha, pumasok ka na, baka mangitim ka at sayang ang mga papaya soap na kinuha mo sa drawer ng kapatid mong bunso.”
"papaya soap"
Oo nga pala.Sayang ang papaya soap.
Ganap ng alas 11 ng tanghali’y tinawag na ako ng aking irog at siya ay matutulog na daw, gigising ng after lunch para daw kami’y mamasyal (paminsan ang after lunch sa kanya ay dinner so alas 7 yun) joke lang mahal!
Matapos hugasan ang aking mga kamay at paa. (mya na ko maligo) ay diretso na sa kompyuter.
at eto na itutuloy ko na ang aking blog sa susunod na title… hihi!
Hello world!
18 Mar 2011 1 Comment
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